I Was Busy Thinking About Bodies

Sorry for the earworm

Before I start, did you miss Friday’s recommendations post, or this month’s big links roundup?

I’ve been thinking about bodies. Actually, more specifically, my own body, and, in a meta-sort of way, I’ve been thinking about how I think about my body. The lovely

Kayla Kleinman

posted a set of journalling prompts to her Instagram, and I’ve been spending time with them as part of my Morning Pages this week. One of them was about what we’re ‘still figuring out’ in our 30s, and in writing my Pages, I realised that one of the things that I will probably always be ‘still figuring out’ is my body and how I feel about it.

Nine days out of ten, I feel fine about my body and in my body. After a run or a satisfying strength workout, I even feel good in it.

But then something will happen and I will… stop feeling good about it. Sometimes that ‘something’ is completely predictable - I see a photo from school where I’m taller and wider than all my friends, or I realise that a skirt I loved last winter doesn’t zip up at the moment, or I have to go jeans shopping.